Im back!! So much has happened over the past few months! I recently moved out of my parents house and into my house in spokane with my sister. Which is nice being on my own.. away from all the junk food that was tempting! So that has been a journey.. Iv been so stressed lately. My best friend and i dont speak anymore. It is very sad. She totally betrayed me and i have a letter waiting for her debating whether i want to give it to her or not... thats a whole nother day story! I really pissed off right now because my boyfriend wont call me back. Hes being an asshole right now and im on the verge of Screaming becuase everything keeps building up right now and i just feel like im leanin over the edge.. to eat or not to eat! Im so hungry.. i hate it when diet pills wear off... Urggg....Im annoyed. Sorry guys for the bad attitude! Help! 

Hello friends!

I have a confession to make! I Skipped school! Lol. My .. friend/newboyfriend.. asked me to come over to his house becuase he was skipping too! It was fun.. we just slept and watched some movies! Didn't eat all day! Woohoo! lol accept for right now! 
I just had a sandwhich.. 300 clals.. 2 cookies 300 and some chips and salsa.. 250
which is 850! oh my goodness!! Nasty! I feel so fun.. and not skinny!
I'm going to take some stay awake pills and maybe mix them with the rest of the hydros i'v got!!:) Does anyone elce do drugs? They make you lose tons of weight!! Well im about to go to work. I hope everyone is doing better! If you feel like talkin.. i'll be here when i get done:) Ill post later tonight and tell you all the deets!
xoxo, Karly K

 Another day, another moment in time.. 
As i sit here.. staring in blank nothingness.. i just think to myself .. "why me" 
Why do i have such a distorted mind? Why do i feel so lonley.. why does no one care what happens to me nor cares to make me stop what i am doing to myself? 
Nothing in life matters right now.. My sister--moved away, with her "fiance" or whatever he is.. She replaced him for me.. i'm no longer.. her heart. I'm just on the back burner, the 3rd wheel, the stupid younger annoying sissy. 
my family, Never home. And when they are.. my mom is always on the downstairs.. the only thing i get from her are "uh huh.. talk to you later sweety.. not right now... " .. I try to talk to her but really, its just like talking to a brick wall.. 
As for my best friends... or shall i say X best friends.. 
we'v been best friends for a long time now. like 3 years or so.. Partners in crime, blood sisters aka B4L.. we shall i say.. broke up. Over something very un resonalbe.. just a stupid argument.. over TXT!! Can you believe that !I know.. how shallow. So a few hours past, lots of mean and hurtful words flew by and there i was.. one down one to go.. 

As for my other friend.. we havn't spoke in a week! Thats a long time compaired to .. us being connected at the hip! Seriously, wherever i went, she went.. trust me .. i mean EVERYWHERE!! lol. We were basically sisters. She was the only thing i had that actually filled the crater in my heart with the loss of my sister being gone. I actually felt like i had someone to talk to, someone to love and be apart of me.. Then there came... DUN DUN DUN... her boyfriend Jordan.. ever since then i'v been ditched, stepped on, and trown out the window.. not to mention blown to piece and ripped to shreds.. 
 We always promised we would be friends till the very end.. Welll hmm we'v been through everything to gether from.. eating crayons & first dance recital to our first shop lifting incident and our first sip of alchol.. 

Which now leaves me.. friendless, familyless, boyfriendless.. (i didn't even tell you what he did to me.. basically ripped my heart out, and took a dagger to it making sure nothing was left.. ) and basically mindless.. 
Nothing can satisfy me more than a nice glass of f  whine and a few pain killes.. no big deal.. 
I'm just stressed,.. Can anyone relate!?

Hi everyone--
For starters my name is karly. I have many dreams and am determined to accomplish them in every way possible. I Have an Ed. Ana is my friend, my god..  yet complete enemy.. the devil. 
I am usually that 1% chance.
I love to try new things and take chances because you only live once. 
I struggle terribly with my friends. As of right now anyways... i'v always been the girl who other girls envy. (I ment that in the least conseited way possible) 
Normally, girls from your school are bitches, and I am basically an outcast, yet everyones friend. My outside life is an act. I put on a performance... I have to act happy all the time. Lies, lies and more lies. But on the inside i feel nothing but hurt, betrayed emotions and sadness lerkin in every emptyness in my body. Recently has been the worst. It seems as if when life seems to set you back, the whole world turns on you. One bad thing after another keeps happening.. the only way i can cope is pills. I love them. They take away my sadness.. fill every hole of sadness with accomplishment, hope and give me the determination i need.  They have made me lose alot of weight so far, i can't wait to see the results in a few weeks:) 
On a good note--
I love to DANCE. Dance is my life, passion and love. 
When things get hazy and i feel like i'v hit rock bottom, dance is my savior. 
When i am on the dance floor, or stage all of my worries disappear. It's better than a drug. Nothing can compair to my world of dance. 

I am open to friends with an Ed. & the same interests as me.. i love to meet to people and i need all the support i can get to acheive the determination and accomplishment that i desire! Love you all! 
xoxox, Karly kay